What does it mean to admit that we are powerless? Some see being powerless as a sign of weakness. Admitting that you are powerless is the first step to recovery in the 12 step programs. Once you have admitted your powerless you need to come to believe that a power greater then yourself will restore […]
I find it crazy how my thoughts can spiral out of control and cause me to have an emotional breakdown. Towards the end of the storm while the fog is still clearing I stop to ask myself, “What happened?” The answer is usually nothing really. Of course, I can always come up with […]
In 12 step meetings I hear people say, “My name is ___, I’m a drug addict. For me to say that is denial. There are many definitions of addiction. For me addiction is the psychological, obsessive and compulsive need to occupy myself with or be involved in something. Drugs were only […]
I don’t quite understand why my feelings and thoughts don’t always agree with each other. My feelings make me react a certain way while my thoughts know that is not the way I want to react or the way I believe.
I think it is a process to get the two to actually coincide. […]
As a recovering addict I still have a hard time facing my feelings. I usually have I hard time identifying the feelings I am experiencing which at times can be very confusing. This confusion usually leads to fear. Fear tends to make addicts want to run. As addicts we are good at running away from […]
I pulled myself out of the depression today. I took positive action. I prayed this morning and I didn’t give in to my bed. I remembered all the things I have been through in my life and how they are no longer problems. Everything changes.At the moment the situation seems so […]
Another thing I struggle with is depression. Take today, I tried to get up and take care of lives responsibilities but instead I decided to go back to bed. Depression is a lot different then being sad. I would rather be sad. Depression makes me not want to go on. […]
Us recovering addicts refer to non addicts as Normies. I sit here wondering today how different my life would be if I was a Normie. Do Normies have the same thought processes as me? I’m sure they don’t but to what extent do we differ?
I have the hardest time keeping balance in […]
There are days in which, one might be surprised, I am truly grateful to be a recovering addict. Then there are days when the shitty committee in my head won’t shut up. Days like this I want to run. Where? That is the problem. When all logic and experience tells me […]
