I can’t, He can, I think I’ll let Him!
What does it mean to admit that we are powerless? Some see being powerless as a sign of weakness. Admitting that you are powerless is the first step to recovery in the 12 step programs. Once you have admitted your powerless you need to come to believe that a power greater then yourself will restore you to sanity and then make the decision to turn your will and your life over to the care of that Higher Power.
Having faith while walking through the hardest times in your life is easier said then done. I keep asking myself, “Am I walking in faith?” I feel like I have reached a point where I have no other choice but to admit I’m powerless and continue to pray for Gods Will for me. I realize that I have no control over my current situation and that all I can do is continue to put one foot in front of the other. Being powerless doesn’t mean that I’m give up. I still have to take positive action and do the next right thing. It is more of a state of acceptance and relief that I don’t have to worry or stress about what is going to happen. I can trust that my Higher Power has a plan for me and trust the process.
I still have moments of extreme emotional and mental pain. It hurts, but I can feel that today clean. I’ve heard it said, “No matter what I think or feel today I never have to use again.” Some days all I can do is pull the covers over my head and go back to bed but other days are more productive. Sometimes I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel but experience has shown that all things pass. Like the saying goes, “This too shall pass.”
I’ve been told that I am not responsible for my addiction but I am responsible for my recovery. Only I can do the footwork to stay clean. I’ve been reaching out to others who have been there and understand what I’m going through. I go to meetings, share what I’m going through and take suggestions. I find gratitude when I stop and think about where the drugs took me, remember what my bottom felt like and realizing things really could be worse!
Just for Today: I trust in God.
I think that you really can judge people by the way they comment different stuff. Some people, even expressing negative thoughts, are still polite and they respect and understand other people. Some people are not even trying to be nice, they just don’t care. I think self-confident person will always act nice, no matter what other people do
April 11th, 2008 at 5:40 am