My Feelings and Thoughts Don’t Coincide
I don’t quite understand why my feelings and thoughts don’t always agree with each other. My feelings make me react a certain way while my thoughts know that is not the way I want to react or the way I believe.
I think it is a process to get the two to actually coincide. I believe that my feelings are my initial reaction based on my previous life experiences. My thoughts are what I know to be true from what small experience I’ve had with stopping to take a look at what my values and beliefs are.
I know that I have made many mistakes in my life and my thought process isn’t exactly correct. I know that my higher power can help me in removing these defects of character now that I’m aware of them. This will be a painful process I’m sure. It doesn’t feel good to be aware of and knowing I’m acting out on a character defect.
The best thing I can do for myself is write. I just can’t figure it all out in my head. Too much is going on up there and I jump from one thing to the next. All I’m doing is mind fucking myself because I can’t figure out anything while my thoughts are racing.
Just for Today: I believe that my higher power can and will remove these defects of character.
Julia thanks for the reply that you made on one of our blogs
It is so good to find another one that is in spreading the word of recovery. I am happy to see this that is for sure. We have many sites that we do and I would love to link to you…..
I do want to comment on the thoughts and reactions if you will allow me to. I think so many times that we always wonder why on something when we really don’t need to know. We don’t have to figure things out all of the time. Sometimes the unknown is better than the known if ya know what I mean.
I know that for myself, when I start to try and figure things out I could end up in a well Mind F**K. So the best thing that I can do is to try and refocus on something else.
Yes sometimes we react the way that we wish we didn’t, but the lovely PROGRAM that we have gives up the opportunity to change and to make amends when we have done wrong. OK remember that RULE 62!
With Love And Respect
Vic
February 11th, 2008 at 11:35 am